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May. 9th, 2017 10:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cherrylngWhenever I look at other people's journal entries online, I think back of mine, the ones that I wrote at long lengths years ago. But then after 2013, I just stopped. I just kept my thoughts to myself. If anyone wanted to know what I think to say, I tell them in chat messages, but rarely or never as a post.
In some ways, it's seen as a sign of maturing to the older people in my life and the imaginary ones in my head, because I'm actually thinking before I say things. But at the same time, it feels... isolating. To be this cautious as a young adult compared to the times when I was a teenager and learning stuff and talking... is it really worth it for me to let myself become this quiet? Like a known entity, yet an enigma at the same time, even to myself.
I'm writing and writing, enjoying myself in letting the stories in my head to come out. I do it for the sake of my own enjoyment, even as I know that it won't be Belldom usually, that it won't be read or commented by many because of what it is. I accept that that's what happens, even if it hurts. I'm currently writing on a Belltin fic for a prompt from![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
panicpalooza about a Soulmate AU, slowly shaping it up but making sure that it won't be ridiculously long to be read.
That's all I can say of at the moment. Maybe once in a while, I will do this, to sit or lie down, and write my thoughts out.
In some ways, it's seen as a sign of maturing to the older people in my life and the imaginary ones in my head, because I'm actually thinking before I say things. But at the same time, it feels... isolating. To be this cautious as a young adult compared to the times when I was a teenager and learning stuff and talking... is it really worth it for me to let myself become this quiet? Like a known entity, yet an enigma at the same time, even to myself.
I'm writing and writing, enjoying myself in letting the stories in my head to come out. I do it for the sake of my own enjoyment, even as I know that it won't be Belldom usually, that it won't be read or commented by many because of what it is. I accept that that's what happens, even if it hurts. I'm currently writing on a Belltin fic for a prompt from
panicpalooza about a Soulmate AU, slowly shaping it up but making sure that it won't be ridiculously long to be read. That's all I can say of at the moment. Maybe once in a while, I will do this, to sit or lie down, and write my thoughts out.
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Date: 2017-05-10 09:15 am (UTC)Writing about your feelings can be hard at times, and scary. But maybe that's just the reason why you should. When you're writing things down, they can get clearer for yourself. Of course that doesn't mean you have to share it. I'm keeping a journal for myself. Writing things down, gets them out of my head, even if it's only for a while. But that journal is just too personal. I would never share that anywhere.
But sharing things can also have a positive effect. People can understand you better, or just know what you're going through. They might even be able to help you in some way.
Just always be sure that you're comfortable with whatever it is you want to share. It's all about you.